V. I.

Lenin

96

KRUPSKAYA AND LENIN TO LENIN’S SISTER MARIA

August 22

I received your letter long ago, dear Manya, but I have
been terribly lazy lately and have got all behind with my letter-writing; there are several letters I must answer.
It must be due to my present way of life; I spend whole
days (as much as five hours at a time) out walking, somehow it is even difficult to read. The summer was foul, but
autumn so far has been marvellous. Volodya also does a lot of walking, but he still does some work, although far less
than before.

What have you decided? When are you leaving and where are you going? When I read your letter to Volodya in which
you asked him what institution you should enter, I remembered what a quandary I was in at your age. First I decided
to become a village schoolmistress, but I was unable to
find a place and wanted to go to the provinces. Then when
the Bestuzhev courses were started I joined them, expecting
to be told about everything I was interested in, but when
they began to talk about something quite different I left.
In short, I was in a hopeless quandary. I was twenty-one
before I heard that there was such a thing as the “social
sciences”; up till then my idea of serious reading had been
either the natural sciences or history, and so first I would
try to read Rossmässler, then the history of Philip II of Spain.
You are placed in very different circumstances. Whether
it is worth while learning “how to make a living”, I don’t
know; I think it is not worth while. If money is needed
you can get a job on some railway, where at least you will
be able to work off the necessary number of hours and have no cares, you will be as free as a bird; but all this pedagogy,
medicine and so on absorbs a person more than it should.
It is a pity to waste time on special training when there is
so much you want to know and should know, and, after all,
your knowledge of languages will always feed you.
Volodya and I are in trouble with languages; we both are rather
bad at them; we take a lot of trouble over them, but we
are still not good. We have taken up English again. How
often we have done so before! I am beginning for the tenth
time, at least. You are probably far ahead of me by now.
Anya knows English quite well, doesn’t she? But I keep forgetting to ask you whether you have made the
acquaintance of Meshcheryakov? I believe he is in Moscow now.
He is as much in love with Belgium as you are. At one time I corresponded with him, and I then had a good
knowledge of all Belgian affairs and was very interested in them.
If you see him, try to find out where his wife is. A friend
of hers wrote me that she had gone to Munich. I should be sorry to lose touch with her. She is a very nice person.
I don’t know whether we shall ever meet again. All my
St. Petersburg acquaintances have been so scattered in all directions that I don’t know who is where. At first
we wrote to one another, but now our correspondence is gradually drying up. It is no good writing letters, you
can never really discuss anything, and you begin ... the
result is that before you know where you are a misunderstanding arises. I do not know how Kuba is getting on,
she wrote little, but it looked as if her nerves were giving
out. But I have written so much there will be no space left
for Volodya, so I had better stop. Many kisses for you, Maria
Alexandrovna and Anyuta. Mother sends regards to all.

All the best, Nadya

August 22, 1899

I was very pleased, Manyasha, when I read that at last you had got Bernstein for
me; [2] I have been and still am waiting very impatiently for it . People have written to
me from Yakutia that they are reading Bernstein and we have not yet got it here! The more they shout about him,
and the more various thick-headed bourgeois and “young”
(in all respects) non-bourgeois make use of him, the more
necessary it is to make the speedy acquaintance of this
“newest” hero of opportunism.

On October 9, 1899 (N.S.) there will be a
Parteitag [1] in Hanover and they will talk about
Bernstein. [3] I should very much like to have reports of it. Please try to get them
for me; it is quite possible to do so in one of the following
ways. Write to your acquaintances abroad (I ask Anya to
do this, too) to send those issues of the newspapers in which
the reports are printed, even if it is only Frankfurter Zeitung ,
which can enter Russia. If the acquaintances do not undertake to send either
Vorwarts [4] or Frankfurter Zeitung , perhaps you can subscribe to Frankfurter Zeitung for October through the Moscow post office. (I know you can subscribe
for three months, but that is too long and too expensive,
4 rubles 70 kopeks. Perhaps you can subscribe for a month?)
If you are abroad yourself, then please buy those issues
and send them.

I am not sending you any literary jobs because I am not writing anything now and do not intend to write. But
if you go abroad I shall probably ask you to look out for
some good old books for me.

All the best,

V. U.